Disappointed

ok...I'm upset. Let me explain.

My parents have been camping in NJ for the week. My mom was sick for most of their trip. I called her like everyday to check up on her. Yesterday, my parents got into a fight and my Mom was very upset. Being the caring daughter I am I talked with her on the phone for almost an hour trying to calm her down. I invited her to MA for four days just to give her and my Dad a break from one another. I talked to my Dad and he was all for dropping her off on their way back home.

My Mom called me at 10:30 this morning saying that she forgot she has a graduation party to go to. So, needless to say my Mom chose to go to this graduation party rather than spending time with her own daughter who misses her.

I cleaned the apartment and even woke up Sugar Mama who worked all night last night to help me.

Sugar Mama told me not to feel bad because she will come and visit during the summer. There is a very slim chance that will ever happen. My Mom does not go anywhere without my Dad.

Idk...maybe a should distance myself for awhile. Maybe she just might realize that she hurt me. Maybe one day she will look back on this day and say, "wow, I have a daughter that loves me and cares for me and I pushed her away and let her down."

Another thing that is semi bothering me is my family has not called to see how I am doing. It's been a month since I moved. Maybe, I don't exist anymore?

If I didn't have my Gram I don't know what I would do. She has helped me so much. And I thank her for the young woman that I've become.