Warm me.

I do not want to leave this bed. It's warm and it smells like Sugar Mama. She is at work until 3pm. I was supposed to leave this morning when she went to work at 7am. Oops. I didn't have anything planned for the day so why not spend some more time with her? I wish we didn't live so far apart. I know for a fact that we would see each other almost everyday if we lived close.

Tuesday night, we were out on the front porch smoking and talking. She has a hammock chair that was hung up by a hook right in front of the steps. Now, before I sat down I asked her if it would hold my weight and she said yes. I sat down and I was in it for about 45 minutes until it broke loose and I fell down the stairs on my back with both feet in the air. All I could do was laugh and say OUCH! I don't think I will be sitting in that hammock anytime soon.

We had fun spending the day together yesterday. We went to a park and had a little picnic and shared stories from our pasts. We saw birds having sex...yeah, not so thrilling. But, every moment I spend with her I fall deeper and deeper in love with her. She is just simply amazing. Unlike myself who she called grouchy last night. Oh, while we were at the park she came up with two nicknames for me. "Sugar pants" and "Sugar lips". I just shook my head.

Lesbian Model

I haven't posted anything in a couple days now. Weekends are usually my busiest time of the entire week. I will play catchup when I get the time.

Nothing really happened Saturday, I worked my usual 8 hour shift. Sunday morning a changed my lock to my apartment just for my own safety and my kitten.

Monday, after work Cupcake came over to work on her photo's while I work on a scrapbook. Which reminds me. Cupcake's photos are going to be in a gallery! Which means I am going to be in a gallery! We also talked about doing some other photos of myself to get into modeling and represent "a lesbian model". Pretty cool right? http://www.myspace.com/romainebrooksgallery

Oh, by the way. I am writing this post in MA. I decided to visit Sugar Mama. Oh and how she loves her nickname! haha She wants to give me a nickname but hasn't come up with one yet. Well got to go.

Sugar Mama

I have been wanting to write about Sugar Mama but every time I actually sit down and try I write about the drama that has been happening. So, goddammit I'm going to write about Sugar Mama right now!

I met her in October. I still had a lot of shit going on with Crazy. I didn't want to start anything until I knew I was over her. Sugar Mama and I remained friends. I knew I had an attraction to her from the beginning. She was super cute and really really shy.

We could not be a better match for each other. So, overall we have known each other for 7 months and have been in a relationship for 4 months.

I am happy for a change. She makes me happy. I know its only been 4 months, but I can easily say that I am falling in love with her. =)

When we thought it couldn't get any better..

Another day filled with drama.

Cupcake must of called me 10 times today. Ha. It was like lesbian hell in upstate NY. I think Sugar Mama is happy where she lives, away from all this shit. But, she gets to hear it from Cupcake and I. Ha.

OK. So to make matters worse my Mom is having a hard time with a woman she graduated with. This woman is fucking insane and living through her daughter who is 18. Grow the fuck up. Leave my mother alone. She is a mature adult unlike this other woman who still wants to be in her teenage years and party it up instead of raising her kids. I don't care what is said about my mother. She is a good woman and I think she did a hell of a good job raising me and my sisters. As it is my Mom is having some health issues. So, this woman is making life a living hell for my Mom. I hope she stands up to this woman soon.

Well, I better get some sleep. Got to work at the crack ass of dawn.

DRAMA CRAZED

Yesterday was a drama filled day.

I thought I was doing really good staying away from Bear and all the drama that came along with him, which he is still wrapped in.

Sugar Mama and I met up with Cupcake at the carnival to take pictures for Albany's Pride. Cupcake is doing a photography display to represent gays in upstate NY. The outcome was very good.

Meanwhile, I got the scoop on Special K. I was shocked and couldn't believe what I was hearing. I am not going to get into any details. The only way I think that I can deal with this is distance myself from Special K just like I did with Bear.

On a better note, Cupcake just called me and wants me to play in a rugby game tonight. I have no clue how to play rugby. I am not a physical person either. I don't know. This might be interesting. It's a great idea for some photos!

Someone today asked me if I am going to completely honest while writing this blog. The answer: YES!

I do not want my blog to be based on lies, like most blogs are these days. I will however give nicknames to the people that are important to me just to keep them confidential.

-Sugar Mama
-Cupcake
-The Stud
-Boo
-Red Head
-Buttercup
-Special K
-Blondie
-Bear


There will be more to come...

Seeking College Life

In grade school I dreamed of one day graduating from High School. Those were the days when I thought once you passed 12th grade you were finally finished with school. I guess I thought wrong.

I was a good student in High School. I was an honor Student Athlete and I graduated with honors.

I am 21 years old. I still do not have my associates degree. I never went away to college, stayed home and went to the local community college. I feel like I have no motivation towards school, but in order to get a good paying job I have to have some sort of degree.

I am going to apply to an online school sometime this week. Hopefully, with a change in my work schedule my school work will get done.

Worse thing is. I do not have a career choice yet.

Maybe I should of made college like this>>>>COLLEGE